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I see the light because I'm intimately aware of the darkness. I have climbed up from depths that I thought I'd never escape. A few times.
I often get comments like "You're always smiling" or "How are you so happy all the time?" First of all, I'm not- I'm probably just happy to see you;) Secondly, I am actually pretty happy. And I can be so happy because I was so sad- ranging from desperate despair to apathetic disdain of being alive... lots of flavors of sadness. Yumm. lol.
I'm kinda mad about it, but I've come to accept that the lowest moments are the most potent for alchemy. The minutes, days, weeks, months, that you honestly don't care to experience are the exact ones that you MUST experience. You're becoming a warrior just by going through it.
The ONLY thing that you must do in those moments is be open to the possibility of not feeling terrible forever. That is literally it. Just hypothetically open to the fact that the chemicals bumming you out might just cycle out eventually on their own and you won't feel so terrible even if circumstances remain the same. Be open to a miracle. (For some, that miracle is medication).
Once the negative momentum subsides - do as much as you can to build the momentum of the positive.
What does that look like practically? In my case, I like to simmer in the good stuff for as long as possible. Music & nature are my biggies. I'll literally stare at one cloud for 30 minutes. I follow squirrels to see what they're doin. Eating things the earth made and absolutely not taking that for granted.
Just getting lost in the magic in the world happening all the time is a beautiful way to passively surrender your sadness to the earth. Let your ego-identity dissolve in the everyday miracles that lovingly surround you.
As Abraham Hicks says, "There is great love here for you."